girl

watching you cry when i struggled letting you in made my lips do their best to break the silence
then tears became a part of my cheek & chin, & you just reminisced with him about my sins
i used you once, & that left my heart overtaken; but you used my heart & lips as practice for his
with him & them, you plastered me the villain; did it just hurt less for our story to be rewritten
my lips first & only knew your kiss, but i had no regret ’til yours pressed his as you traded me in
i’d never claim we were perfection, but even if it’s been re-scripted, we were the closest of friends
i cherished you, when we held each other to our chests, & when we broke things we couldn’t mend
girl, i would’ve stood by your side ’til the end, a value valued less than charm & convenience

you laughed i wouldn’t say ‘shit’; by letting go of my hand to take his you got me to say bullshit
you chided me for your version of what it is to quit, then met the meaning in full as you left
you had my kiss, but eff that, you had my chest; then cast in it’s worth for a boy in spandex
is bitterness all you can detect; to forgive isn’t to forget, but to cherish the other regardless
but in this moment, my heartbeat would elevate itself if my lips tried to spit you’re cherished
in all honesty, it stops knowing i hurt you as i did, but girl, did your heartbeat ever quit
i’d never hurt you by intent, & even when i’m pissed, i swear i only wish you God’s best

numbness has spread from my fingertips; a thousand questions ache like thorns in my head
had you wandered to heaven, it would’ve beckoned hell, but it beckoned ten-fold as you left
you’re free to call me pathetic with their lips, but i have words for them that are a better fit
their eyes may see me as egotistic, but nails on slate made my ears adore their arrogance less
i recall when you vented & spilled your chest; then you painted me red, & let them play target
you cherished my heart, then decided you didn’t; kissed my lips, then thought them best to forget

after you leaned your head against my chest, you grinned; you knew it’s beat, & found rest
my arms put warmth in your chest, & your cheek warmed my fingertips as our lips met
your wit still make me grin, & your voice made my ears deaf, except to its tenderness
your beauty is unparalleled; your eyes are God’s ocean’s themselves, even when they drip
i swear, despite my sins, making them spill to your chin has left my own cheeks wet